both liz and sarah would happily just leave connecticut and me and all our friends and move to london or spain.

I turned down moving to Barcelona for my friends.

that’s kind of unnerving they wouldn’t do the same for me. am i right? or am i just overreacting.

You’ve been in my head months and months

And I’m done with you, all of you

With your perfect hair and perfect lives

Perfect friends and perfect lies

But its just not fair,

How one person could do this to another,

I’m slowly getting smothered,

Drowning in the thoughts I think

too bad you just wanna watch me sink

So go back to your arrogance

I’ve been waiting to tell you this,

You have lost your final chance.

It sucks you just don’t care,

While you insult me I’ll sit in silence

run my fingers through my hair…

BUT ITS NOT FAIR!

How one person could do this to another,

I’m slowly getting smothered,

Drowning in the thoughts I think

too bad you just want to watch me sink

I thought we were friends?

I should have known this all along,

but in the mean time I’ll go back to singing this pointless song.

hello tumblr. im rachel wolfe, and this is my secret blog. that i probably will never ever show anyone. if you are looking at this… then i’ve decided to show you. please, dont judge me. here’s a song i wrote about Ben in world themes/math/my learning center. I don’t think i love him or anything… but in the song i do. so play along okay? i really mean most of the things i said. the lyrics probably suck but hey, i tried. (btw just saying lyrics always sound better with a melody in the back, which is only in my head… so yeah.) i wish i could tell sarah about this.

Dear Ben,

Can I tell you a story about

A little girl with dreams

bigger than herself

Oh she’s hopelessly in love, in love with you

she’s sorry for the bother

but she can’t help it, no she cant help it.

(Chorus:)

Tell me how, how to be better

Right now, now, I’ve been waiting for you

So can you see me? Have you noticed me?

This story’s so cliche but you dont care anyway

Dear Ben… (end of chorus)

Dear Ben,

I want to live to see your thoughts set right

Oh she’s so in love, in love with you

She wishes you would care

but she knows you can’t do it,

you can’t do it

(Chorus)

Confusion, Exaustion,

Stress, Desperation

this shits getting old

and its taking its toll

This is nothing new,

but what the hell is wrong with you?

So please please tell me how!

how to be better for you.

Right now! come on, i’ve been waiting

Can you see me…Have you noticed me…

Oh, dear ben… dear ben.